Dolphin71474

08:37 am - SINGLE AGAIN!!!!

I have never been this excited to be single again. Of course I had the hour of regret, but it was only an hour.

I have the best brother in the world and friends who brought me to realize a lot of things about that relationship that were NOT healthy or good for me. They are awesome peeps!

Someone out there is for me and this relationship taught me a very good lesson - I AM NOT GOING TO SETTLE FOR SOMEONE JUST BECAUSE I WANT A RELATIONSHIP. Thanks to my peep in Kentucky who helped me see that.

So, back to the dating scene, however and whereever that may be. :)

Watch out world I am SINGLE AGAIN!!!

06:00 pm - venting

So I just needed to vent.

Not to anyone in particular, but vent. I am so tired of liars in my life. I am tired of those who pretend to my face and then turn around and act like everything is ok. I am tired of all the bullshit that occurs when too many people decide that they need to know everything about a persons life. I am just plan tired, hurt, and most of all confused.

One of these days, I hope to have more people in my life that are true to me. That hold my personal thoughts and feelings to themselves when I ask them too. I hope to find people who like me for me and do not take advantage of my compassion and big heart, or the fact that I try to help everyone in anyway that I can.

Too many times I have been burned. WAY TOO MANY. I trust but that is in high regards. I do not give my trust easily nor take advantage of others trust in me.

I have lived my life alone for the most part, only having a few very close people to me. I had hoped by this age I would have found more than a few. I am ok with the few I have as they can be and are trusted with my life.

So, to the universe, when you are ready to share some people with me who can handle being honest and trustworthy I will accept it. Until then, I am happy with the few I have.

Current Mood: content

01:48 pm

I stole this from somebody but it's soooo true.


When she stare's at your mouth
[ Kiss her]
When she pushes you or hit's you
[ Grab her and dont let go ]
When she start's cursing at you
[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]
When she's quiet
[ Ask her whats wrong ]
When she ignore's you
[ Give her your attention ]
When she pull's away
[ Pull her back ]
When you see her at her worst
[ Tell her she's beautiful ]
When you see her start crying
[Just hold her and dont say a word ]
When you see her walking
[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]
When she's scared
[ Protect her ]
When she lay's her head on your shoulder
[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]
When she steal's your favorite hat
[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]
When she tease's you
( Tease her back and make her laugh ]

And when she is ornery
( hold her down and blow razz-berries on her belly)
When she doesnt answer for a long time
[ reassure her that everything is okay ]
When she look's at you with doubt
[ Back yourself up ]
When she say's that she like's you
[ she really does more than you could understand ]
When she grab's at your hands
[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]
When she bump's into you
[ bump into her back and make her laugh]
When she tell's you a secret
[ keep it safe and untold ]
When she looks at you in your eyes
[ dont look away until she does ]
When she misses you
[ she's hurting inside ]
When you break her heart
[ the pain never really goes away ]
- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you.
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick.
- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its
stupid.
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes.
- Let her know she's important.
- Kiss her in the pouring rain.
- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;
"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

'People will forget what you said, People will forget what you
did. But people will never forget how you made them feel'.

12:24 am - so many questions....

How do you know? So, how do you know when a guy likes you? How do you know if it's going to go anywhere? Is it in holding his hand, feeling his arms around you, or the good 'ol first kiss? Is it in that one of a kind way he looks at you? The sound of his voice that melts your heart? Is it his compassion, yet strong? I wish I knew. Everyone always says, you just know. OK so what's the clue?

I want that first kiss that takes me by surprise, isn't planned, but wanted from both sides. I want the casual hand holding, a little caress on the arm. I want to feel safe, feel the butterflies in my tummy, awake my desires. I want to feel wanted.

I got all of that. Now, I just have no idea what to do with it.

I hope this isn't the part where I wake up from the dream, I just keep getting to live and feel it!

Current Mood: content

09:31 pm - phew!

Well, its week 4 of my walking.  The first week was a little wimpy, same with the second.  However, I walked 3 times last week, 1mile on Monday, 2 miles on Tues and Wed.  This week, 1 mile on Mon and Thurs and 2 miles on Tues.  I am sleeping better and my stress level has decreased. 

I am still having to monitor my blood pressure.  According to my doc, I need to get it down and stabilized.  Not such an easy thing to do with the one boss I have.  But, I am trying.

Looks to be that Mon, Tues, Wed, maybe Fri will be the nights I am walking.  Its so convenient, as the trail is behind work and is flat. So that is better for my knee.

Here's hoping for healthier!!!

Current Mood: relaxed

04:57 pm - For Beans

This is for mightybeans ..... too cute!

12:30 am - Free, I am definitely Free

I have figured out that I am now free.  And freedom is so liberating and wonderful!

I am finally over the dumbass, mind manipulating, possessive scumbbag!!

I am able to talk to men, flirt with them, even kiss them and feel good about myself and what I am doing.  I am opening up, saying and seeing things that I would never have before.  It is exilerating.  I am so happy now and happy about myself.  I even like myself now.  I still have a few little set backs of shyness every now and again.  But its only been a few months.

I will never let another man treat me that way again. I am not a car or lawn ornament that can be owned. Love me for me, for who I am, my likes and dislikes or stay the hell out of my life.  Respect me and my family or shove it where the sun will never shine!

Current Mood: enthralled

09:12 pm - not the mustid!

see more loldogs are funny dog pictures!

10:03 pm - Need new witch -- for those who liked WICKED

loldogs are funny dog pictures!

Current Mood: bouncy

09:58 pm - And for those who ride or have ridden the bus to work...

loldogs are funny dog pictures!

Current Mood: chipper

07:12 pm - Dentists!!!

As most know I was enjoying the lovely dentist on Saturday morning.  I need a crown on a back tooth on the left top. Having TMJ doesn't bode well for one having to have dental work done.  So I was none to thrilled to go.  But it was great - painful but nowhere near what I have had in the past. The dentist was awesome.  I didn't feel the needle for the Novocaine, that is until the shot in the roof of my mouth, but still was going way better than I thought. 

Let me tell ya, the rest of the weekend though was ....Shit!  I thought I could handle the pain, a few Tylenol and boom I would be raring to go.  No such luck. 

I almost make it through Dulahan.  I was even having fun in spite of a little pain here and there.  Then about midnight on then hit that wall of pain.  It didn't stop there either.  I get home try to go to sleep and no such luck!  Couldn't lay anyway except on my back and the throbbing was horrible.  I maybe get 2 or 3 hours of good sleep and the DAMN phone rings at 8am!  Ok, so now what I am awake and in pain.  More Tylenol.  Still not working. 

So I go to my bro's, tenthcrewmember.  Love him - he doesn't make me talk too much!  Still in semi pain, I head home try to convince myself to go to sleep.  Lay down and BOOM throbbing pain, can't lay on my sides only on my back.  UGH!  So another night of 2 -3 hours of sleep - get up and go to work. 

Going to call dentist this morning.... need something!  I can't relax my jaw at all!!  PAIN PAIN PAIN... call them - I can get in at 330 this afternoon!  I take it.  Pain all day, but then get to the dentist and within 5 minutes of being in the chair I can close my mouth all the way, relax my jaw and may be able to eat something other than pudding, soup, mashed potatoes, mac-n-cheese and pancakes-no syrup (what I have been totally living on) in the next day or so.  You never realize what you miss until you can not have it!  They tell me if I still cant handle the pain after a few more days and not eating hard (semi hard) food on that side, I need to call them back to get in for a new temporary crown.

Oh joy will this be a fun next few weeks until I get the permanent one!

My coworkers are awesome though, they were so supportive and offered to help me with anything I needed today.  Sometimes they are just the usual coworkers and then times like this they are the best.

Hoping for real food tomorrow :)

Current Mood: exhausted

07:31 pm - What is YOUR Leprechaun name? TAKE TWO :)

Your Leprechaun Name Is:

Freckles McNugget

Current Mood: blah

02:55 am - Here we go again....

    So for those that did not see or speak to myself or my brother, our dad is in the hospital again.

    Short version: He had a car accident in December and came home with a concussion, went to a followup visit with the regular doc and still had slight dizziness. Doc said wait a few weeks, sometimes concussions will last a little while.
   
    Fast forward a few weeks and he has what he thinks is blood in his bowel movements. NOT GOOD! So I get up Saturday morning with no idea of this occuring over the last few days and he says we are going to the ER. Off we go, ER DOC said definitely intestinal bleeding of some sort from some where... so Sunday will be the camera down the throat then if needed I assume they will do the colonoscopy. They may wait until Monday to do it, but he will have one done since he has never had one before. Due to the bleeding they think that is why he has been a little pale and having worse cases of dizzy spells. So he was given blood and frozen plasma when we left him tonight. Wow, turning 70 sucks!! His b-day was just a few days ago.

    Oh and as for the dumbass kid with no insurance that hit him... he is on probation for 2 years, 30 day jail sentence mandatory for any slight issue with the law, no matter what.  Has to pay dad his deductible we had to pay to our insurance company.  And I dont think he will have a license until after the probation.  Judge told the kid insurance company may come after him, and he said he understood why.

Well, hopefully February will start better. 

Current Mood: anxious

11:56 pm - What is YOUR Leprechaun name?

You Are an Apple

You are strong, powerful, and even a bit stubborn at times. You have enough strength to help those around you in trouble. You are adventurous and charming. Many people are drawn to you. You love life, and you enjoy traveling the world. You enjoy fine food, art, and culture. People have accused you of being a snob, but that's not accurate. You do enjoy the best things in life. Unlike snobs, you truly appreciate quality... not just pretend to.

Current Mood: amused

11:50 pm - I'm an Apple

You Are an Apple

You are strong, powerful, and even a bit stubborn at times. You have enough strength to help those around you in trouble. You are adventurous and charming. Many people are drawn to you. You love life, and you enjoy traveling the world. You enjoy fine food, art, and culture. People have accused you of being a snob, but that's not accurate. You do enjoy the best things in life. Unlike snobs, you truly appreciate quality... not just pretend to.

Current Mood: sleepy

01:17 am - Thank you to my bro!

Thank you so much big brother for everything.  I am so happy you were able to make it tonight.  Dad loved it.  I can not wait to get the picture in the computer of you and dad!!  That will be someting!  Anyway thank you - it was awesome to have you there tonight.  He loved the cake and the pictures I had on the poster.

Yeah for this weekend - starting off on a better note than last weekend.

Dinner with friends tomorrow and Dulahan tomorrow night.  Breakfast plans on Sunday...  some where in there I need to do homework!

g'nite

Current Mood: tired

08:36 pm - ugh! sick

I so hate being sick. Many thanks to my bro and fam for the great lunch today. It was nice to have the time with you guys. Thanks again. I enjoyed gaming today as well, even though I was just there to watch. Thanks for letting me do that gojiro. Much appreciated.

I want to thank everyone for their support through this crazy last few months. My dad is doing better and we hope to make this 08 a great year and put the end of 07 behind us. For those that don't know, dad bought my car from me and I purchased a new car, a Ford Fusion, so far so good. It is a nice car and black on black, the way I like it :)

So, to all of you-- Many happy, healthy, prosperous wishes for a wonderful year.

Current Mood: sick

05:58 pm - Dad update

A few days ago  after Dad comes home, we relax a little and he calls the insurance company of the 28 yr old ass that hit him and was told he wasnt covered.  Fast forward to the ass' court date this morning--- its being continued!!! One would assume right after 1/1...NO not until the 20 something of Jan.  What bullshit is that!!!!  He has no car, it was totalled out.  All four airbags deployed!  The ass said he thought he had an arrow --- HELLO THAT LIGHT HAS NEVER HAD A FUCKIN' ARROW SINCE IT WAS PUT IN!  Looks like this will be another rack one up for the bad guys for this Family.  I so so hate this, I WANT '07 TO END!!!

So when is Dulahan playing again, where, and I am so not driving but drinking any amount of anything possible to forget these last 2 months!!!!!  There is only so much a kid can take when their parent (only real one they ever had) is hurt!

OH RUTTIN' HELL - SOMEONE FAST FORWARD THE NEXT WEEK!!!!

Current Mood: aggravated

07:56 pm - UGH!!! No Answers - still sore and hurt?? WTF??

     So, I go to the doctor today and he says well, good news about your neck.  Glad to see the physical therapy has helped, do you want to go back and continue??  WTF?? Like I enjoy self inflicted pain, sorry, but no.  So long story very short he says we can do a fast and easy thing to fix the pain/discomfort now - A SHOT! - or you can see a shoulder specialist.  Those who know me know I say F*&^^ a shot.  So off to get an MRI on Wed night to rule out any further injury down under the muscle.  I get muscle relaxers --- hmmm not supposed to drive with those.  (This could be an interesting week)  :P   Go back to my regular orthopedic on Monday to review the MRI.  The only plus is NO, thats right, NO NO NO Physical Therapy this week!!!!!!!  But I may have to go back ....grumble, grumble gruMBLE!!!!
     Yeah - for that, now I get to go tomorrow and get my 6 month check on my blood pressure.  I tell you this getting old shit is not cool.  Glad I have insurance, this crap is costing me a Fortune- even with the insurance coverage!!!
     Ok enough of my sad talk.
Bye!

Current Mood: confused

09:52 pm - ROYALTY in the family!

So I am learning to post.... LOL  but seriusly - I am ROYALTY!!!!!

You are The High Priestess

Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.

The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.

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Current Mood: cheerful

09:50 pm - Royalty is finally in the family!

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Current Mood: giddy

02:33 am - center of attention

Man am I tired of being around people who have to be the center of attention.  Not just one place or one time, but everywhere all the time!

Seems that way in my job life and my outside of work life.

Just wish they would get a clue.  You do not have to always talk, joke, be noticed outwardly for someone to know you are there. 

That just makes those look like and act like fools.  As well, people eventually get tired of it and of being around those.  Some times there is more to life if you sit and listen to others and share others time instead of demanding it good or bad.

It just irritates the piss out of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: pissed off